Broke up with Hoa when he noticed the thing about me totally not wanting to date. I should be relieved, but I juts feel guilty because he really liked me. And I liked him, just.... Not enough. Not cut out for dating. Can't do that kind of intimacy. Alone forever with my stupid asexuality. A little attracted to both sexes, but not enough of either to be comfortable with even a simple kiss.

Sick now. Some kind of cold. Sore throat a little cough, tired and achey and sneezy. And kitteny. She's fluffy. And cute. Kitten.Mmmmmm Kitten. Wish I had a cold sprite.

Damn. I hate christmas. I have no money and no idea what to get Katie Mom and Grandma. And Aunt Beth. Shit. Stupid holiday.
Kitteeeeeen.

Hay Shen, did you and Dad ever read that book I left behind for you? Lamb: the Gospel according to Biff, Christ's childhood pal. Great book. Got a couple more Christopher Moore books. Only started one.

Started writing a serious genderswitch fic, just to prove it could be done. Doing pretty well so far; although by chapter three Mustang's still a guy. Wait, chapter one's like a prolouge- does it count as a chapter? Well, chapter four(three?) will be day one in his new body. Having a lot of fun with his disease. I love science. I should be a doctor. Although it's a good thing Roettger's doesn't really exist, since there's no way to eliminate the Y-Chromosome on a living human in real life. But there would be other treatments. There allways are. Yay, science. I'm gonna make Bridget beta the fic since she was the one who issued the challenge. Yeah. My first beta'd fic. Nice.

I miss my daddy. And Katie. Shoot, I need to set up another driver's test. Since I panicked and failed.

Augh. I'm going back to bed.

Meme time. You all do this too. Yes, you.

→ Take a screenshot of your desktop.
→ Take a screenshot your media player (if you have one up).
→ Take a screenshot of another program you have up.
→ Pick a tab you have up and take a screenshot of it.
→ YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO CHANGE ANYTHING BEFORE TAKING A SCREENSHOT OF IT.

*blows nose*
I f-forgot about that.... I read that scene so long ago, I forgot how much it affected me...
*wipes eyes*
I feel a little silly, though.
But... It's just so beautiful and so sad.
Wanting to live five lives, so she can be born in five places and have five careers and eat five lifetimes worth of food and  try five lifetimes full of different things and...
And fall in love with the same person every time.
*sniffle*
Damn it. Now I remember why I liked her. I had forgotten in all the recent chapters, when there was so much focus any everyone else and all she got was angst and uselessness, but that goodbye....
*wipes eyes again*
Dammit. I felt like this the first time I read it too, come to think on it. I feel so silly.

I WANT SOMETHING REALLY SICKENINGLY ROMANTIC AND FLUFFY NOW. BUT WHAT?!

http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=d0c6c125009611d5ab1eab3e9fa335cab53c7e957badb916

I have once again updated my archive- and once again, lost all of the information on who I was supposed to credit and which doujins the scanners had politely asked me not to include. So. Uh. You might wanna fill me in on that tidbit if you didn't want your scans/scanlations shared, because I suck at keeping track of this stuff. But I do it all out of love!

I have for you:
40 AllenxKanda
25 KandaxAllen (That few? Huh.)
62 LavixAllen
37 LavixKanda or vice-versa
16 TykkixAllen
16 TykkixLavi
10 CrossxKomui
02 AllenxLinalee
07 KandaxLinalee
02 LavixLinalee
06 LinaleexMultiple/Anyone else
04 KandaxMiranda
03 Allen-centric antholgies
06 Kanda-centric anthologies
06 Lavi-centric anthologies
And a bunch of gag/unidentifiable pairing/too many pairing in one to bother counting/other.

The url is the standard www.mediafire.com/dgraymandoujinshi
And, as usual, everything is organized by pairing and language and I never remove credit pages from the scans.

If you want any more information, just ask~

Couldn't resist the alluring pull of the Fairy Tail anime any more, despite my best efforts to wait till more was out.

LOVE THE SOUNDTRACK. Love it like BURNING.

Read ahead in the manga, LokixLucy is now my OTP for reasons that will become clear if you read far enough. Yay, I like het for once! And Natsu, Gray and Ezra are the new Trio of DUMB. I love them ALL. Especially Ezra.

And I started a stupid crack fic in which no one is pregnant.

On a completely unrelated note, I have a boyfriend. Who thinks my CRAZY is cute. Go me.

Scanned by me <3


Chou Musubi
PG
http://www.mediafire.com/file/jeyttjiigaw/[LavixAllen] Chou Musubi.zip


Dear.
R18 XXXX PORN ALERT PENISPENISPENIS
http://www.mediafire.com/file/mzhqmmncjml/[LavixAllen] Dear.zip


Sekai-gi
PG13 Not-explicit sex with phantom weiners
http://www.mediafire.com/file/2iztjzmygmr/[LavixAllen] Sekai-Gi.zip


Egoizumu Seizensen
R15 Semi-explicit sex
http://www.mediafire.com/file/mmjywzjytmg/[LavixAllen] Egoizumu Seizensen.zip


Monochrome Shinshi
PG13 Non-explicit sex
http://www.mediafire.com/file/33mzhyorzkm/[KandaxAllen] Monochrome Gentleman.zip


Melon and Marshmallow
No pairings, PG
http://www.mediafire.com/file/tvwn2gzeoyd/Melon and Marshmallow.zip


Monochrome Shinshi
PG13 Non-explicit
http://www.mediafire.com/file/33mzhyorzkm/[KandaxAllen] Monochrome Gentleman.zip


Orange Chocolate
R18 Hetsex, Hot!Girl!Lavi with Tykki Mikk and delicous itty bitty short-shorts
http://www.mediafire.com/file/rmemzwymn2z/[TykkixGIRL!Lavi] Orange Chocolate.zip

Unfortunately, due to a schedual error in the tournament, Colin Harris when not only scheduled into three matched in the semifinals, but two of them were against himself. The judges thought it best to simply move him foreward in the tournament for that one, but unfortunately the rules were very specific about a match having to take place for every draw up, and Colin ended up wrestling himself. Fortunately he won. Unfortunately, he also lost, leaving him unable to move foreward with the loss under his belt. As such, they ended up ruling it a draw, meaning both contenders would move foreward in the tournament, and that in the finals, Colin would once again be facing himself. There is fear for his health, however, as Colin takes wrestling very seriously, and last time he fought himself he was injured quite badly.




...They started it.

And now, an essay detailing reasons I support the Boondock Saints but not Kira.

Reason one: Motivation.
Yagami Raito killed to create a new world order where he would be God. By purging evil, he at once instilled fear in the masses as well as a sense of hope- of justice. He used these feelings to control the population, and, thorugh his otherwordly means of exacting judgement, made poeple believe this to be the work of God himself.

The Saints, however, also had divine motivation- they did it because they felt they were doing God's work by punishing the wicked. They sent a prayer with every victim, and put pennies on their eyes to pay their way to the gates of judgement.

Reason Two: Choice in Victims.

Kira killed anyone who broke the law, whether or not they were allready in jail. In fact, most of them were. Indiscrimanetly murdering en masse, he reached his hand towards all who wronged. He also, most despicably of all, killed all opposing him, whether or not their only crime was to try to catch him for his own crimes.

The Saints killed mobsters, high and low level, but moreover only killed those who they saw as irredeemable; those who the law had not been able to punish. They would never kill an innocent, even if it meant dying themselves. They said it themselves, "it is your wicked we claim, and we encourage you lesser forms of filth not to cross over into true corruption, into our domain."

Reason Three: Means and Method

Kira killed from far away, sitting in his home and writing names in a notebook. Not having to face each victim as they died, hearing thier pleas and seeing the panic and despair in their eyes.

The Saints killed by shooting their victims, where they would see the blood pouring and feel it splash on themselves. They knew each victim in their time of death, and sent a prayer with them.

I think I had more, but I can't remember. Either way, that's my two cents.

Oh, look. It's snowing. How 'bout that.

SHEN. I have started a Haru/Xanxus fic. Catch up on Hitman Reborn so you can read it when I'm done. Because you love crack pairings probably more than even me.

HERE
HAVE SOME DELICIOUS JAILBAIT

OH MY GOD DINO, YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME. A pegasus and a flaming fucking whip? Could you BE any more of a god damn fag?

Also, I refuse to accept the probability that Squalo is dead. Especially since Zakuro cheated. (DAMN YOU BYAKURAN! CHEATER CHEATER PUMPKIN EATER!)

WHAT? You DARE to reject ME? That is NOT how it works! I reject YOU, you snivveling worm! I am GLORIOUS, and you are just a pathetic.... ARG! I didn't even like you that much, you were just entertaining enough to be worth a shot!

...

I KNEW IT! I KNEW I was too crazy for any normal guy to go out with! Damn my standards! Damn them to hell! I could go out with every loser who hits on me, and I'd STILL never get a second date because everyone is scared off by the CRAZY!

"Hey! I know plenty about the Bible!"

"Really? Name the apostles."

"Uh.... Judas, Bartholomew, Thomas, Luke, Matthew, Perry... Uh, Peter, Paul, John.... George and Ringo?"

"...Ringo?"

"Y-yeah! Everyone knows about Ringo! He was Christ's 18th apostle, son of a stonemason from, uh, Liverpool."

"Really. I had no idea there was a Liverpool in Israel."

"Well. Now you know. And now you know better than to question my Bible-knowledge as well."

"I'll never bring it up again."

On google, the second entry you see when you look up 'yaoi fanfiction' is The All-Purpose Yaoi Naruto Fanfiction. I can't believe that our being bored and pumped with sugar ended in such an... internet fandom-wide.... THING. Jeezus. 375 reviews?  CHRIST. WE WERE BORED. NOT INSPIRED.

Also, after two days of kitty action, my allergies have finally kicked in. Now I'm sad. And sneezy.

Shen, what's wrong with your tablet that you need a new one?

We've got a new kitten named Maybeline. It'll take a while for me to associate the name with 'cat' instead of 'mascara', but she's soooooo cute! We got her yesterday and she's allready napping on me. And following me around, a little. She's tiny and black, so it's kinda hard to tell her apart from Layla at first- when she grows it'll be almost impossible. But they've got different colored eyes, so that'll help. Since they seem to have equally affectionate temperments, haha. Layla's pissed, though. Like, PISSED. My panties being strewn about the house tell tht tale pretty well.

I had a date last night. Even though I only went so I wouldn't have to cook, I actually had a lot of fun. We talked for about two hours at the restaurant, and both of us drew a version of ourselves boxing a zebra in my sketchbook. I had a date with a different guy a couple of weeks ago, but it wasn't nearly as much fun.                cxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx                                                 -]xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx                                                      ]=
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Zabimaru is a woman (women). Senbonzakura is NOT. The world (of Bleach) is officialy upside-down.

!@%!#$%FUCKINGSTUPID@#%@~%~WORTHLESSEILEENCAN'TEVEN@#$%%^%~$^~^~ANYHTINGRIGHT$#^!&^!!!!!!!!!!

We went to Northwest Trek yesterday.

I can't think of a a single happier instance than the moment I was walking away from the Blackbears to see the Grizzlies. That napping bear was so cute~! And the coyote who wandered in circles, and dug a little hole, and then sat in the hole, 'cuz it was his sittin' hole; and the cougars who kept pacing aroung and around and the female was following the male for some reason even though he was just pacing and even when he wandered into a corner and then backed up to get out she still followed him every step like he was actually doing something.

And the racoon family! So cute~! I want a racoon. And the beaver who was chewin' on the grate underwater, and and the foxes that were napping together in the back so you could only see their furry little backs, and the deer with leaves all over his antlers, and the OWLS!

Like the snowy white owl, who was the only one who was awake, she sorta looked at us for a minute and then hopped/waddled away haughtily. So pretty! And the great horned owls were asleep, but one of them opened an eye to look at us for a minute, then closed it again. He was all like"Screw you, I'm sleepin!"

And the bears! I wanted to go down there and nap with him, but that's obviously a terrible idea, so I didn't. I love those bears.

And, and Dad wrestled Sasquatch, 'cuz he's the champion wrestler of the park, and so he takes challengers, and dad lost. But that's why Sasquatch has the belt- 'cuz he's the best.